Apologies

Bound and restrained;

struggle to muffle

fury untamed;

stir and shuffle

misery and shame

for exposed fears.

Don’t come near.

The voices speak:

You’re childish and lazy,

stupid and crazy,

a slut who’s unfunny,

a dumb ugly monkey.

The voices, they scream

piercing buzzing inseamed

to my head.

Sanity unravels,

thoughts travel

to trauma unnamed

by triggers obtained.

I’m ashamed.

It’s not your fault.

I’m afraid.

It’s not your fault.

I’m insane.

It’s not your fault.

I’m in the raining

self-assault

on my brain.

I can’t be saved,

but it’s not your fault.

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