I decided to write this blog to share my thoughts and observations on codependency and how it has affected my relationships and mental health. My Relationship With Codependency
Author: chibininjablog
My Relationship With Codependency
I decided to write this blog to share my thoughts and observations on codependency and how it has affected my relationships and mental health.
Poetry: Split
Crashing smashing
Claws slashing
Teeth gnashing
Thrashing my heart,
The depth of my soul
Into the wall.
Poetry: First Kiss(es)?
Trigger warning: This poem contains trauma content. I’m learning to not be afraid anymore.
My BPD: Splitting
Splitting is a defense mechanism often used by people who suffer from BPD or other trauma to turn a situation into a complete black or white situation to cope with pain or suffering.
Love Poem: Coming Home to You
Your fingers squeeze my organs
Like a baby’s loving grasp,
Reactive, Instinctive,
Holding with gentle trust.
Poetry: Love is a Greedy Bitch
Who is this ambiguous figure
That contorts and lingers into
Green, eyes pried to the side
For intended hurt pride;
Poetry: The Tragedy of First Love
Our feet were dirty with sand
as we danced
hand in hand; we laughed
like two kittens
bitten by euphoria,
an original story
of crush-smitten children.
The Dichotomy of Sexuality and Self-Esteem
Sexuality is a complicated subject for me. I grew up very sheltered and innocent, so sex has long been associated with shame and fear in my mind. When I began to come of age, I interpreted my yearnings and urges to be a longing for love. I associated sensuality and affection for acts of love…Read more »
Poetry: touch me; Please don’t
What is it to yearn?
I’ve learned that a touch, a caress
Can be the most painful of sensations.