I decided to write this blog to share my thoughts and observations on codependency and how it has affected my relationships and mental health. My Relationship With Codependency
I decided to write this blog to share my thoughts and observations on codependency and how it has affected my relationships and mental health.
Thrashing my heart,
The depth of my soul
Into the wall.
Trigger warning: This poem contains trauma content. I’m learning to not be afraid anymore.
Splitting is a defense mechanism often used by people who suffer from BPD or other trauma to turn a situation into a complete black or white situation to cope with pain or suffering.
Your fingers squeeze my organs
Like a baby’s loving grasp,
Holding with gentle trust.
Who is this ambiguous figure
That contorts and lingers into
Green, eyes pried to the side
For intended hurt pride;
Sexuality is a complicated subject for me. I grew up very sheltered and innocent, so sex has long been associated with shame and fear in my mind. When I began to come of age, I interpreted my yearnings and urges to be a longing for love. I associated sensuality and affection for acts of love…Read more »
What is it to yearn?
I’ve learned that a touch, a caress
Can be the most painful of sensations.
Dissociation is a Psychology term for a group of symptoms, usually caused by trauma, that include depersonalization, amnesia, feelings of numbness and disengagement.