I decided to write this blog to share my thoughts and observations on codependency and how it has affected my relationships and mental health.
Thrashing my heart,
The depth of my soul
Into the wall.
Your fingers squeeze my organs
Like a baby’s loving grasp,
Holding with gentle trust.
Who is this ambiguous figure
That contorts and lingers into
Green, eyes pried to the side
For intended hurt pride;
Sexuality is a complicated subject for me. I grew up very sheltered and innocent, so sex has long been associated with shame and fear in my mind. When I began to come of age, I interpreted my yearnings and urges to be a longing for love. I associated sensuality and affection for acts of love…Read more »
What is it to yearn?
I’ve learned that a touch, a caress
Can be the most painful of sensations.
Unfamiliar are the whispers that drone the air.
My hair gently brushes cheek to tickle lashes,
My fickle happiness no longer a slashing wind-
Tunnel funneling smiles into putrid bile.
No, I just might stay here a while….
I may be defective, but I will try and try again, forever.
please make them stop They follow As I swallow gulps of hazy regrets Set in the unsettling of my stomach When my back gets wet and mouth dry In a heaving crying sigh of longing For relief. I want to keep the fantasy Alive, striving to sleep at night, Unmoved by the black spirits That…Read more »